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Ghajini Music Review

I haven't had the time to post the Ghajini Music Review. So here goes. In my opinion, Ghajini is one of A.R. Rahman's best works. Here is some information about the movie however. Ghajini is a film starring Aamir Khan and Asin Thottumkal. It's remade from the Tamil hit, also called Ghajini, which released in 2005. This film is yet to release in theatres. The music is composed by Musical Genius, A.R. Rahman, and delivers on people's expectations. I shall post the storyline later, because here, only the music matters. So let's start.

Ghajini has six tracks in total.

Guzarish, sung by Javed Ali, Sonu Nigam

Aye Bachoo, sung by Suzanne

Lattoo Lattoo, sung by Shreya Ghoshal, Pravin Mani

Behka Behka, sung by Karthik

Kaise Mujhe, sung by Benny Dayal, Shreya Ghoshal

Kaise Mujhe Instrumental

Let's start off with Guzarish. I have to admit, Guzarish is the very first song I heard from Ghajini and it's what kept me on my feet waiting for Ghajini to release. But Guzarish is one of the best songs in the movie, but it is sort of equally good as the others. Guzarish has a unique musical feel to it. Especially the melody of the song. The song starts with a hum and a guitar melody. The first lyrics are Tu meri adhoori pyaas pyaas. I have to say that the video is pretty good too, Aamir Khan has done the music justice. We can immediately tell by the unique melody and unique beats that it's A.R. Rahman behind this. A beat that doesn't make sense at first, but then when you give it a good listen, it's genius! Guzarish is definitely insatiable and addicting to a person who listens to it first. They will keep listening to it for some time with constant repetition. Sonu Nigam's intervals and the humming has also been a good addition to the song. It has a certain feel to it. Javed Ali is one of the best singers I know. His last song I heard was Jashn E Bahaara from Jodhaa Akbar. 

Remember what I said about it not making any sense? Aye Bachoo was the song that really didn't make any sense in the beginning. The beat was just weird. But then it made all the sense in the world, and i couldn't stop listening to it! The lyrics are really meaningful. Aye Bachoo is a sort of rocking song. Jhoom le Jhoom Jhoom Jhoom Jhoomak Jhoom, pairon main thatha thaiyaa tham thamak tham. It's definitely pure rock and roll. Ok, maybe with a lot of rocking beats. You can immediately imagine the dance steps that will go with this song. I've even danced to it quite a few times. I am pretty sure the kids will also enjoy it quite a bit since it's mostly aimed towards kids (Aye Bachoo). The guitar rift in the middle is awesome!

I have to say that I listen to this almost everyday. It's so uniquely composed and it definitely has a certain drug to it. Lattoo Lattoo is has a certain part in the song, Yaar Yaar, which has a unique tune to it and I couldn't stop but think that it was a little weird, but then I understood it from the musical point of view and it certainly requires a certain talent to sing this song. It has a tune that just goes in one ear, and goes out of the other ear, then turns around and comes right back in. :D Awesome song, but it's a bit short and could be extended. I am sure people would enjoy more of it if it's extended.

Behka Behka is a sort of jazzy, RnB song. Karthik has done a good job with the difficult rhythm and the lyrics. Give the intervals a listen and you will know what I mean. This was one of those songs that I kind of brushed off and then found myself humming it and I gave it a couple more listens. Then I couldn't stop listening to it. The lyrics are sort of cool and a bit funny. Behka main behki woh behki haawa si aaye. The sax has really given it a good feel. The melody of Guzarish's hum was copied as Sax on this song and it really was a good addition to it and reminds listeners of what a great song Guzarish is. it's sort of like a treat inside a treat.

Kaise Mujhe is one of the best songs and the most meaningful ever. I cannot believe that it became a song that I brushed off in the beginning but now I cannot stop listening to it. The beginning of the song is entrancing and Benny Dayal has done justice to this song. Shreya Ghoshal has as usual done her best in this song and sounds quite wonderful. The rhythm of the song is quite unique and the lyrics are very impressive. The translation will be posted soon for this song and you'll know what I mean then. I've not heard a meaningful song like this in ages. It's time is average, but listening to it, you will think that it's a bit long, but enjoy it quite the same. Percussion is excellent.

Overall, Ghajini is one of the best of A.R. Rahman. I hope the movie is as good as the tamil one even though both are rip offs from an english movie as usual. 

Ciao!

KaBhI Na kAbHi kIsI nA KiSi sE pYaR HoTa hAi

WhY Do wE fEeL tHe NeEd To lOvE? 

I cannot really say. We can avoid it for as long as we want. We can write all about how we're the "good" type, who'll do what our parents say, who won't "date" and all that. But there's a time. There's a time when you can't really stop it. You cannot avoid it. When is that time? How will you know when you're in love? This is what I think love is.

When you love a person, there are a few things you don't like and you like. Here's when you can tell that you're in love with that person. 

The things that used to bother you about that person, don't bother you anymore.

Ironically, the things that didn't used to bother you, start irritating you to the core.

You start counting the minutes, even the seconds, until you see that person.

Yet, when you're with that person, you're scared as hell, and can't wait to leave.

And when you leave, you want to see them again, even though they just dropped you off a minute ago.

You become completely paranoid about what they're thinking when they're alone with you and staring off into blank space.

When they're asleep, you smile while you watch them sleep (creepy, I know).

When they wake up, you want to be the first person they see.

When you're alone, you just want that person to hold you.

When they do hold you, you want them to just let you go because you become nervous as hell.

When the world seemed to agree against little things you did, you would stop. But when the world seems to be against your relationship, you don’t care anymore what the freakin' world thinks.

You have selective hearing. When you hear your name being called, you don't hear it. When you hear your love's name however, you immediately turn around.

Even the little things they get you, it seems to be the most precious.

All the memories you had as friends, seem too distant, even though they happened just a week ago.

Even when their family is weird, you seem to like them.

When someone asks you if you have a boyfriend, you reply yes. When your love asks you if he's your boyfriend however, you smile shyly and look away without answering the question.

You used to point out girls to him when he was your friend, now when you see a girl, you promptly distract him to look the other way.

There are too many awkward pauses in your conversation with other people, yet you can communicate without a pause with your love.

Love is all you care about, and everything outside starts making you smile.

Simple things that irritated you, like pollen, don't bother anymore because you cannot stop looking at the flowers.

You start blogging about nonsensical things such as love.

These are the things that tell you that you're in love. That you cannot stop it, you cannot avoid it, and you cannot make it seem more. But you can balance it. It's very simple.

Trouble is a friend

Trouble will find you no matter where you go

No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow

The eye of the storm or the cry in the morn

You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

I love the lyrics of this song, it's so meaningful and catchy. I discovered this song on Grey's Anatomy, and I tried to find it. I was actually obsessed with it for a whole day and searched everywhere, but right after it released, it wouldn't be known, so I couldn't find it. Then I don't know how, but it slipped my mind and I just remembered it today. So I went to heardontv.com and since it's been like a week, people had already updated the website and I found the song. So I searched limewire and found it immediately. I keep listening to it again, and what really attracts me is the piano in the beginning and throughout the song, and the beat. The melody is pretty good too. Anyway, I am now listening to it. He sees what I see and he knows what I know. So don't forget as you ease around. He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart. He waits in the wind, he's gotta play the part. A really cool song.

Sometimes the world is crazy!

What I like most about my life is my friends. I hang out with my friends all the time, and they seem like the best memories I will have in my life. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate my friends, namely Josh. Right now I am with Josh, Joelle, and Justina. I plan to stay over tonight, and leave tomorrow. Anyway, my day pretty much went smoothly. I woke up around 8 just in time for Josh to pick me up, but apparently he fell asleep, therefore I waited outside for a half an hour!!! Anyway, after that I replied back to David about the interview and then Josh picked me up and we headed over to Joelle and Justina's place. Since then, we've just been lolly-gagging and having some fun. Oh, and I watched Elektra, which is one of my favorite movies. One more thing, the most important, I forgot to mention. I hate the freakin' world!!! What's going on in Mumbai is really making me angry. I cannot believe that people can just take other people's lives without caring one bit. The last update is that it's finally over, but 195 people died, and there were about 327 fatalities. This is the fifth or sixth string attack since May. And there were several other attacks in the past few years. This time they attacked Leopold Cafe, Taj Mahal hotel, Oberoi hotel, CST rail, a hospital and one other place. It really makes me mad. I cannot believe that people can't just be peaceful with each other. It makes the world work so much better. Perhaps I should have gone into philosophy. It seems to be the right thing to do. And it interests me so much, but I feel much more interested about Psychology. After all, if you can figure out how the mind works, then you can pretty much solve the entire world's problems. That's of course once you learn how to control a mind from doing those terrible things. In any case, I am now happy right now about that. I guess my first blog title doesn't really pertain very much to this post, therefore I am going to change it to something else. 

Geese

How abruptly I can come up with stupid words sometimes. This time it was the word, "Geese".

Geese
Definition: A word invented stupidly during a conversation while you're trying to tell your stupid friend to stop hitting you with the sofa cushions.
Part of speech: Apparently, an interjection.
Language of Origin: English. And the language of stupidity?
Time of Origin: Perhaps 20 minutes ago or so.
Used in a sentence: Geese! Would you leave me alone?

Now I shall explain as to what I was thinking, or rather doing, when I came up with this word. I believe I was taking the time to explain to certain mutt-head to stop throwing sofa cushions at me. I was just completely engrossed in my book, Breaking Dawn, and suddenly, out of nowhere, my head collides with a sofa cushion that came out of nowhere?! Ok, not nowhere, that came from my right side where my friend was sitting, grinning victoriously. Suddenly I was pissed and tried to say, "God!" and then word, "Jeez!" at the same time, and instead ended up saying, "Geese!". This was ensued by a hilarious reaction. Well, I shall go now. Gotta get ready for work. Boy, I hope they cancelled my shift for today. I feel a bad urge to go shopping. Walmart!!! Or not...

Some Random Blathering

Rain, rain, never go away! Always come back the same day! And even after that...
Yes, yes, I'm quite excited about the rain and I never want it to leave. I should be getting to bed soon since I promised Dad that I'll be awake early tomorrow morning to cook breakfast. Even now I'm a little tired. I'm always tired nowadays, and I'm wondering whether or not to take an extra day off a week. I already have Fridays off, but I think I'm going to take Thursdays off from work too. Today is election day, everyone! Let's see who the new president of the United States is. Like that's going to change anything, but still we have to hope for some good, illaya? Anyway, I don't know whether this will work out or not. I should go now, don't have anything interesting to blog about... not right now anyway. I'm pretty much brain-dead right now.
Ciao!

The Perfect Weather and other news...

This is always my perfect weather. Sort of gloomy, with a chance of rain. You never know when it's going to rain or even if it's going to rain, but the prospect of it makes you happy. And by you, I mean me. Yes, yes, I don't always make the perfect sense. Anyway, it is so nice outside. About 69 degrees. Nice and cool, yet not very cold. People may say that if you like this sort of a weather, then you're a gloomy person in the usual sense. I disagree. I'm far from a gloomy person. I'm most of the time cheerful. The reason I like this weather is because it's sort of an adventurous weather. You never know what might happen, and I always love the rain. I really wish it would rain, even though it's near halloween time. It's supposed to rain tomorrow, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Then it's letting off and coming back on Thursday and raining through the weekend. There's even a slight chance of rain today. Anyway, there is nothing else to write about for today. I spoke to Vidhya yesterday, and she was a little depressed because she screwed up her interview. It wasn't her fault though, she couldn't have known. So I spent some time consoling her, but you know how she is. She will sound depressed one minute and bounce back the next. She is the cheerful type who's always the one giving advice. That's why I talk to her most of the time when I have a problem. She had fun on Diwali and asked me if I had an oil bath. I, as usual, didn't have a clue what she was talking about and then I remembered that during Diwali, you're supposed to have an oil bath. I told her I didn't think it was a good idea because I was tired, but she insisted. So I had an oil bath and guess what? I FELL ASLEEP IN THE TUB!!! This is why I said it's not a good idea. I hadn't slept in three days, and I was tired and usually oil baths make me even more tired. There we go, that's an hour in my life I'm never going to get back and guess what she told me when I told her about this. She told me take an hour out of my usual sleep, there, problem solved. I said I was going to hit her over the head with the Chappathi Kall she was using at that moment. She started laughing and then messed up on the Curd Rice, or in my language, Thair Sadham. Oh, wait, according to Vidhya's baby language, it's called Thacchi Mammum it seems. She confused me for like fifteen minutes explaining where in the hell that came from. Then in the end she said it's baby talk and I was ready to kill her. Couldn't she have said it in the beginning? She said she was messing with me. Oy, vey. Anyway, halloween is tomorrow. I don't know why I said that. It's supposed to rain tomorrow, by the way!!! Oh, I can't wait... I am so waiting to go out there and get wet. Yippay! I think I'm going to go by Kennedy on Monday and see all my old teachers and such. Oh, and here's a poem I'm working on right now.

The sounds of the train
The words on my mind
The images of the leaves
The scenes unwind
Things are going on outside
Things are going on inside
What's really important?
I think the answer's are already sent
Things that are going on on the outside
Are prompting those things inside
The gloomy weather
The things that seem so tender
The leaves being shook by the wind
As my heart mends
The prospect of rain
Slowly erasing away my pain
Nature is my healer
I can't thank it enough
I bury my thoughts deeper
And seem extremely tough
But inside I'm weak
Weak because of those daily emotions
What is it I really seek?
I put together my brain's functions
But I can't seem to figure it out
I keep having doubts
If someone could help me through this
I think the only person is the one I look for
The only person I really miss
And I remember him as I keep looking towards the shore
The ocean's waves come and go
Just like love
But the rifts of sand are still there
Like love's memories, we're unaware
Death is not the end of life
It's the beginning of a new one
A life that starts all over again
In our prospect
All our memories that are slain
But they will reappear, we can expect
Poems that always rhyme
Are not intentional
They are written just in time
Yet they're sensational

Kanaa Kangiren, Aanandha Thaandavam

As everyone knows, my days have been pretty hectic. Needless to say, I've completely relied on music to bring me through. Today I discovered this movie called, "Aanandha Thaandavam". God knows what the movie's about, but the music is actually pretty good. There's a song called Kanaa Kaangiren, and the reason I listened to the song is because I saw that one of the singers were Shubha Mudgal. He has an interesting voice and the first and only time I had heard about him was in the song Bichua. He sang the complete song and the song actually had a good flavor to it because of his voice. I didn't know he did tamil songs, however. So I gave it a listen and it's actually pretty good. It's composed by GV Prakash who's actually pretty talented, and that goes to show that he is in fact A.R. Rahman's relation. You all know that A.R. Rahman is, has been, and always will be, my favorite music director. Anyway, Kanaa Kangiren is a good song composed with Alaaps, unique beats, and some interesting and comical lyrics. Apparently the story takes place in New York, so there's also a mention of New York in the song in quite the comical way I've ever heard it described. That didn't seem to make any sense, but whatever. Anyway, there's another song called Kallil, and that's sung by Benny Dayal of course. It's one of the only melodic songs he's sung. Oh wait, I'm forgetting Tu Meri Dost Hain. That's also sung by him. In any case, this is an interesting song to listen to. I haven't heard it a number of times to tell if this is one of those songs that I hear once and let it go, or I hear once and I immediately take a liking to it, or I hear it once or twice and gradually become crazed about it. We'll have to wait and see. So I've been updating all my blogs and I've come to a profound conclusion. I have way too many blogs. I'm going to update all my blogs with all the posts and the delete the once I rarely use. Typepad might not be one of them, but I'm sad to say that Wordpress may be. I wish they would combine Blogger, Wordpress, and Typepad templates. Or actually the whole site. That would be the best company ever! I like Blogger for it's HTML editing, I like Wordpress for it's unique templates, and I like Typepad for it's... well... everything else. That would be really cool to see. Well, we shall wait and see. Like I'm now waiting for everything else. It's one in the morning and I have a midterm tomorrow so it's best if I get some sleep because I have to leave very early. *Sigh*

What in the world is so different?

I don't get what the heck typepad is talking about. I don't see any difference as to the compose screen or any other screen as a matter of fact. The only difference I have seen is the featured templates. That's better. Instead of the subjects being on top and the templates in it being in the bottom, it's now horizontally aligned. That is, the subject's in the left and the templates are on the right. I like it that way. It seems to be very easy to browse and preview and such. I haven't been on typepad in a while, and I just remembered that I even hold a blog here. For some reason I just keep going back to blogger. But I have created another account with typepad and soon I'll be migrating this blog to that account and cancelling this account. This is just the basic feature whereas the other account I have created is actually a pro account. The main reason I did that is because I can create my own themes. I am still learning how to do that, but I know the basics. Anyway, my day pretty much went smoothly. I got off work again early. My paycheck's not going to look too good this week, but I really don't care. I care more about taking some rest and getting through this week as it's midterms week. Speaking of which, yesterday's midterms went off without a hitch. Perfectly written, perfectly read, perfectly done. I think...

Love is all we have in this world

Sometimes life can be so blind
Things in life are so bland
Education, education, education
There is no time for art
There is no time for temptation
There is no time for drawing, painting, and music
It’s so bland that it sometimes makes me sick
I want to rely on art to come up in life
I already know that that’s near impossible
But why only math, science, and English to make you thrive?
Why not drawing, painting, music, and things
They are there, but they’re not taken seriously
They are always put behind the major things
Sometimes education is not the only thing that makes a person survive
It’s the pure feeling of looking at an amazing painting
It makes you feel as if you want to dive
off of this world and into the amazing things
that we usually stay away from
But where does all this come from?
It’s simply talent.
Talent is always there in our hearts.
Talent comes from intent.
Intent to do something beautiful.
Come up with a song or paint a picture
Intent to make it beautiful
Intent to make it memorable
And the intent?
Where does that come from?
Desire.
To want to do something.
It’s almost close to the word intent.
But its not the same.
Desire can’t be bent
Desire can’t be broken
Desires are like dreams
They’re there, but they’re put behind us
Because there are more important things in the world
Or so it seems
But what the world doesn’t seem to realize
Is that a heart is like a pearl
It glints at the smallest desire
But when it’s taken seriously, it’s like fire
When in life there is so much passion
It’s hard not to show compassion
It’s hard to go into depression
Because passion is the only thing that makes us live
That makes life worth living
Passion makes us give
All the love we can imagine and we keep giving
Because love is infinite
Love makes us connect
To other hearts, to other souls
Love is hurt
When a lover parts, these are the tolls
In life that we have to go through
But look at it like a shoe
You try one on and it doesn’t fit
You take it off and try on others for a bit
Until you come to the right one
Then you get it and from then on it’s done
You have to keep trying for love
Don’t give up, because someone’s there for you
Don’t ask why, don’t ask how
They’re there, waiting for you
And when you find them
That day you will find the answers to those questions too

Life and Love

Sometimes life can be so blind

Things in life are so bland

Education, education, education

There is no time for art

There is no time for temptation

There is no time for drawing, painting, and music

It’s so bland that it sometimes makes me sick

I want to rely on art to come up in life

I already know that that’s near impossible

But why only math, science, and English to make you thrive?

Why not drawing, painting, music, and things

They are there, but they’re not taken seriously

They are always put behind the major things

Sometimes education is not the only thing that makes a person survive

It’s the pure feeling of looking at an amazing painting

It makes you feel as if you want to dive

off of this world and into the amazing things

that we usually stay away from

But where does all this come from?

It’s simply talent.

Talent is always there in our hearts.

Talent comes from intent.

Intent to do something beautiful.

Come up with a song or paint a picture

Intent to make it beautiful

Intent to make it memorable

And the intent?

Where does that come from?

Desire.

To want to do something.

It’s almost close to the word intent.

But its not the same.

Desire can’t be bent

Desire can’t be broken

Desires are like dreams

They’re there, but they’re put behind us

Because there are more important things in the world

Or so it seems

But what the world doesn’t seem to realize

Is that a heart is like a pearl

It glints at the smallest desire

But when it’s taken seriously, it’s like fire

When in life there is so much passion

It’s hard not to show compassion

It’s hard to go into depression

Because passion is the only thing that makes us live

That makes life worth living

Passion makes us give

All the love we can imagine and we keep giving

Because love is infinite

Love makes us connect

To other hearts, to other souls

Love is hurt

When a lover parts, these are the tolls

In life that we have to go through

But look at it like a shoe

You try one on and it doesn’t fit

You take it off and try on others for a bit

Until you come to the right one

Then you get it and from then on it’s done

You have to keep trying for love

Don’t give up, because someone’s there for you

Don’t ask why, don’t ask how

They’re there, waiting for you

And when you find them

That day you will find the answers to those questions too

 

 

Everything about it is a little confusing. Sometimes things work out, sometimes they don't. I am talking about work here. I got monitored on one of the calls today, and I did really well. I botched on one because he had interrupted me when I was reading with a yes, and I finished reading and then asked him if he was still going to say yes instead of asking if he was going to say yes or no. but when I explained it to her, she understood and said that I had done the right thing. Overall, out of a hundred, I would have scored 97 I think. That's pretty good, but I still wish I could have scored the other three points. Anyway, I heard this funny answering machine today. The lady was saying that she wasn't available and to leave a message and such, but the funny thing was, there was a dog barking in the background. It was punctuating every word with a bark. I almost spit out the coke I was drinking. Other than that, I talked to Patti, Thatha, and Archana yesterday. I told them I'd call back today, but I didn't. they must be worried. I will call them tomorrow morning after I get some rest. I was so tired today for some reason. I got a lot of sleep, which is essentially a miracle and those don't happen a lot, so I'm grateful. Yet I was tired. Anyway, I should go now. Just listen to music, enjoy, finish the chores, and then go sleep. Bye.

Happenings of Sunday, the 26th.

Hectic day at work, but I got through it. I finally sold my iPod touch, now I am just waiting to get the second generation. Hopefully Apple doesn't release something else in the next week or so. It will be a miracle if they don't. anyway, today is Diwali in India, and I really wish I was there, especially since Archan is also in Madras. We would have had a lot of fun if we were together this Diwali. I remember the Diwali 6 years ago. That was the time I was home for the holidays from boarding school and Archan and I spent the entire Diwali together. Had a lot of fun. Burst a good load of firecrackers and I think she went around chasing me for the rest of the day for something I probably did. I did used to enjoy annoying her a lot when we were little. We always kept getting in fights. We would have about three fights a day, it was a lot of fun. And then we would laugh about it later on in the day. We still laugh about it now when we think about those moments. In fact, I was recalling the memory to her about one of the nights I slept over at her place and the window was open, and she cooked up this story about an evil monkey that died and haunts the building. Even though I lived right next door, that did it for me. I didn't sleep the entire night because I was scared out of my mind. She still laughs about it and I keep telling her I will get back at her one day for that. This happened a few years ago, I am not sure how many. It was while she was in Madras so this was probably about 8 years ago or so. And then another time I took one of her Nancy Drew books that she was reading while she went to get some water and I hid it under her bed. She spent an entire two hours looking for it and I finally took it out from under her bed and gave it to her. She was pissed off. She says I was mental at that time. Ha ha, I think she was the mental one during then. And then I taught her how to play the Taxi man for one of her school programs at Holy Angels, and she kept messing up. I recall I had a nice cold and I was in my flannels when I was teaching her and I sort of fell asleep while she was playing. She hit me on the head with her book and woke me up. It was 3 in the afternoon. Ah, so many countless memories. We look at the pictures everytime we go to Patti's. our favorite picture is when we were little and we were standing there in a T-shirt and shorts and posing like Shivaji Ganesan and RajniKanth. That cracks me up every single time. I was two years old and she was three years old, I believe. We even wore the same Gagra Choli (formal Indian dress) for another Diwali. Except hers was lavender and mine was orange. Ah, I love those memories. Anyway, I talked to her about my plans of coming to india this summer. She said to make it a good month and a half because she wants me to spend atleast two weeks with her. I was definitely planning on spending that much time with her anyway. Our last trip, two years ago, was a big success, and an utter failure at the same time. The reason was because I spent the beginning of the trip with her and the rest of my trip we both missed each other and I had a miserable time being depressed. So this time that's going to change. She's coming and spending the first two weeks with me in Madras, and then going back to Pune. I will go along with all my other trips and plans and then I will head to Pune and spend the last week with her and leave for United States from Pune. I am sure I will be glad to be back home. Last time I came back to U.S., I just felt so happy to be back. For some reason I don't like anything in india, I have just become accustomed to the life in U.S., and yet I miss india like hell sometimes. It's a good country, na? I should get going. Will blog more about it later.

Oh, and I also saw Josh today. He's going through some hell in his family and was really glad to see me. I was supposed to meet him at 8, but I accidentally overslept and he called me. I said I could still meet him as I had a couple of hours and he said no, that's fine. Then he called me back in two minutes and said he'd changed his mind and wanted to see me. He was there already when I got there, although I got a bit delayed because I had to go through the security patrol and FBI inquiries in my house. Sigh. Oh, and also harini is coming next month and spending some eight days with me. That should be fun. we did make up, although I am still a little annoyed about a few things. Our fight has to be the longest fight in history. 6 years, boy, that's long. Anyway, it was a little emotional, you could say. She said that we're family and I should start respecting her like one. I said after what she did, she didn't deserve my respect, nor anyone else's. archan is also mad at her for the New Year's event. Though archan is a person who doesn't really hold a grudge for a long time, completely opposite from me in that aspect. That's why she knows never to piss me off. She did once or twice and I didn't talk to her for a couple of days, and when I did, I seemed cold and distant. She immediately recognized it from my voice and kept apologizing and finally I just had to give in and end it because it was a stupid fight. I think the fight was over… I don't even remember now. I'd have to ask her about it. Speaking of which, I promised I'd call her today, so I should remember to do that before she leaves. I am happy she came by flight. She had actually booked her trip through the train and I told her to change it because I didn't like her traveling alone by train, so she had called me back a couple of days before she left and said she would be going by flight. I was happy to hear that. I mean seriously, I was freakin' scared when I went to Pune last time by train, and Dad was with me. Imagine that. I cant imagine traveling in it alone. All those guys were just staring, not that that's a new thing. I mean pretty much all guys stare at every woman walking by in India, but still, it was a little scary. I wonder how people get through it over there.

Oh, and I also got off work early today which was nice because the commute was early. I got home at around 7 instead of 11. I should probably call Josh in the morning.

Tell Me Your Dreams, Irresistible Forces

I've had a pretty boring day, but I feel a lot more relaxed. I really did need yesterday and today off to catch up on a few things and read a couple of good books and such. And yes, I did read two good books. One was "Tell Me Your Dreams" by Sidney Sheldon, and the other was "Irresistible Forces" by Danielle Steel.

While Tell me your dreams was more of a thriller, Irresistible forces was more of a life story between a husband and wife and their life together that gets separated.

Tell me your dreams.

The story starts off with Ashley Patterson, a scared woman, who thinks at every moment someone's watching her. She's had this feeling for the past six months, and she feels someone goes through her apartment when she's not there and wants to harm her. She remembers the only man she ever loved, who is Jim, a high school sweetheart. They had planned to run away because her father wouldn't approve and was going to take her to London the next day. She waited at the train station for him, but he never showed and she never knew the reason. She gets an invite from her old high school to attend a high school reunion and she goes to attend it and that's when she finds out that Jim was actually murdered and castrated the night before he had told that he would meet her at the station. The police had looked for Ashley, but she had already left for London. Ashley fears that it might have been her father who murdered Jim as he had threatened to break every bone in his body if he ever saw her again. Ashley also has a coworker at office, Dennis Tibble, who is very much attracted to her and wants to date her, but she is not interested in him and refuses his countless, sometimes indecent, offers a number of times. Then one day he says that he's in love with someone else and wants some advise from her, so she agrees to go with him to his apartment and talk to him. She has a couple of sips of wine and the next thing she knows, she wakes up at a cheap hotel in Chicago dressed like a slut with no money. A couple of guys meet her at a hotel and say they had a good time and she has no idea what they're talking about. The only thing she is sure of is that Dennis had something to do with all this. She is however shocked to find out upon arriving back into the city that Dennis has been murdered the same way Jim had been. Stabbed and castrated. She is now very afraid that the police may go after her father, so she acts as if she never came to his apartment that Friday night. 

Toni Prescott is also a woman working with Ashley and utterly despises her. She knows that Ashley is a boring person and she will never be outgoing like Toni is. Toni is a wild person and goes out to bars and clubs and sings and dances. She was feeling very depressed in the new city until she found the internet. Now she goes online almost every day and chats with someone. This is how she meets Jean, a man from Quebec who seems very worldy and interesting. She begins to talk to him more and more and finally when Global Communications, their work, sends them all on a trip to Quebec, she meets up with him and spends time with him for the next two weeks and enjoys her time with him. One night he offers to take her up to his apartment to make love and she refuses and goes back to her apartment. The next morning, Jean is found stabbed and castrated.

Alette Peters is a woman with mood swings and a lot of negative thoughts. She fears her thoughts coming in and depressing her when she meets Richard Melton, a painter. When she spends her time with him, she finds her thoughts being far from negative, and thoroughly enjoys his company. However, Alette is dumbstruck to learn that Richard has been murdered, stabbed and castrated one evening after he had invited her to his apartment, but she had refused and left.

Meanwhile, Ashley discovers a terrible message on her mirror when she comes home saying, "You will die". She quickly phones Detective Blake, the detective who's investigating all the other gory murders and he offers to stay the night and protect her. He sleeps on her couch while she sleeps in her bedroom. The next morning, Ashley is awakened by a scream from the alley, and when she goes down, Detective Blake is discovered, stabbed and castrated. Ashley has no idea who did it, and she tells the police the same thing. However, the police dig into it a little more and they find a bloody knife in Ashley's kitchen and blood all over her carpet and they immediately conclude that that was the murder scene. They also find Ashley's fingerprints on the knife and immediately arrest her. They try to find Toni and Alette, but there's no record of either of them even existing.

This is when the detectives step in to reveal that in all crime scenes, only one person's fingerprints are found, and that's Ashley Patterson. Ashley has no idea why this is all happening, nor does she have any memory of committing any of those murders. She even takes a polygraph test and the test comes out negative, claiming that she's innocent. But all the evidence goes against her. There's a painting of Richard in her apartment. There's also a ring that Jean gave to Toni while she was in Quebec. Ashley denies knowing Jean or Richard. Her father hires David Singer, a lawyer who owes him his mother's life, to represent Ashley. Singer is not a criminal attorney, but risks his partnership, and eventually his job, to represent Ashley. After the first time he talks to Ashley, he discovers that something is wrong. He sends Ashley to a psychologist, and that's when we find out that Ashley actually has Multiple Personality Disorder. She is Ashley, Toni, and Alette. The story goes on to show that Toni is the personality who murdered all those men because when Ashley was little, she was continuously molested by her father, and since then Toni has protected her from every man she ever met. It is revealed that Ashley actually went to Jim's house to talk, and when Jim attacked her, Toni's personality took over and killed him. Dennis, Jean, and Richard all tried to do the same and Toni's personality also killed them. The night Detective Blake was there, he heard sounds from Ashley's room and went to check on her. He saw her laying there naked and couldn't help himself. Toni took over and killed him. Eventually the Gilbert, a psychologist, helps Ashley break through and make all the personalities into one. He also eventually falls in love with her, and Ashley leaves the facility, fully cured.

Irresistible Forces

Irresistible forces was written by Danielle Steel, a romantic writer.

The story revolves around Meredith and Steven, a happily married couple. Meredith is a big investment banker, and Steven is a highly valued doctor. They both hardly see each other, but when they do, their life is bliss. They've been married for fourteen years and they're still completely in love with each other. The problem occurs when Meredith attends a two week meeting in San fransisco and other places to finish a big deal. Meredith and her boss spend a lot of time together working on the deal, and the little time they get, they spend with each other, going out to places to eat dinner, watching movies and talking. They enjoy the friendship a lot, and when Meredith goes back to New York, she realizes that she is going to miss Cal a lot. Cal, also reciprocating, offers her a job of CFO, because his earlier CFO left without a notice. Meredith is doubtful about the move, but Steven talks her into it saying she deserves it. She happily makes a move and Steven is all set to move after three months because he has a job offer from another hospital in San Fransisco  where a doctor's leaving. The first two months are tough to get through because Meredith spends more time with Cal and things crop up on weekends when she's supposed to spend time with Steven. The only reassurance is that Steven would be moving very soon. Then a bombshell is dropped. Steven loses his job offer because the other doctor decides not to quit. Now things become even more difficult. Meredith finds it hard to stay away from Cal and realizes that they're in love with each other. They commit one mistake that will guilt her the rest of their marriage. Steven meanwhile finds his companionship in his assistant, Anna. They also eventually fall in love with each other. Meredith and Steven decide to fix their marriage before it's too late, not telling each other of their mistakes. But they realize that it's already too late and Steven leaves Meredith and goes back to New York. Cal and Meredith get back together, and Steven and Anna get back together. 

Both books, though completely different from each other, were quite enjoyable. My opinion of enjoyable is a book that I can't put down until I've read every single page to the end. I had to do the same with both of these books. I have a lot more books in my collection that I haven't read and I looked forward to reading them.

Mi Amore

Got the fire, got desire, won't fight it any longer

Can you see it, can you feel it?

And it's coming out stronger

I'm lost into loving you

Go, go, go

Mi amore, amore, amore

Take my heart, take my hand

Amore, amore, amore

Our love will never end

Fly away with me, my angel

From heaven sent

Amore, amore, amore

Take my heart, mi amore

 

When you kiss me, when you hold me, when you're callin me baby

Then you twist me, then you turn me, and you're driving me crazy

I'm lost into loving you

Go, go, go

Mi amore, amore, amore

Take my heart, take my hand

Amore, amore, amore

Our love will never end

Fly away with me, my angel

From heaven sent

Amore, amore, amore

Take my heart, mi amore

 

Mi amore, amore, amore

Take my heart, take my hand

Amore, amore, amore

Our love will never end

Fly away with me, my angel

From heaven sent

Amore, amore, amore

Take my heart, mi amore

 

What an amazing song this is. I just had to blog about it as soon as I heard it. The song is by velvet and from the album Finally. This is not an American genre, so it's not in iTunes. The artist is Swedish and apart from the English lyrics, the song is actually meant for the Swedish audience. I came across it when I opened youtube. As usual it listed this one as one recommended for me, so I checked it out. This is the second time youtube has recommended something for me and I've loved it. The first one was chinamma I think. And that's how I came across Sakkarakatti again. Wonderful, youtube. And excellent, velvet. This is actually the only song I like of her's and that's because it has an Arabic feel to it. Also, I don't know, ever since I heard habibi, I've had a thing for any song that has the phrase, "Mi Amore". It just sounds so romantic. Anyway, hope I'm not going crazyyyy.

Other happenings of 23rd

I was so frustrated with what happened last night that I forgot to post about the rest of the day. Let me tell you all about the day. I woke up hearing the sound of a text message received and saw that it was Jenna. I had already made plans with her to go to Yogurtagogo on Thursday, but I hadn't confirmed. She wanted to know if I still wanted to go. I did want to go and catch up on all the stuff we missed while I was away and she was in Arkansas. This is what I found out, she is moving to Arkansas! Well, not really moving, but staying there for a year to go around and service there. I was shocked. Anyway, we cracked jokes the whole time in the car and talked about random stuff. Then we got to Yogurtagogo and she tried out the pumpkin yogurt while I, as usual, tried out the chocolate one. I also added some M&Ms and some strawberries. Oh, good God, it was fantastic! Anyway, we talked and Jenna played around with my new iPod and she listened to a few Indian songs and she wanted me to sing one of those out loud to her because it turned out to be very challenging to sing. I told her that was the one I was going to perform anyway, and I sang it to her and she was amazed that I finished without messing up one bit. We drove around for a bit and then she dropped me off at work. After work, she picked me up and we went over to her sister's house and I played with Tigertron for a while, and that cat was lazily sleeping on the couch, of course. Jack jack immediately came running as soon as he saw that I was in and started sniffing me all over. I still remember the first time I'd seen jack jack. I'd almost run out of the house, screaming. He was smiling, but the smile looked like he was about to bite a big chunk of your leg. Now I'm used to that. Anyway, then Heather, Jenna, Britney, and I talked while Britney straightened my hair out… yes my hair is now straight! And I hate it. I am totally going back to my old hairstyle. Well, not that old. I showed a picture of my old hairstyle to Britney and she was shocked. This was way back in high school when I had really short hair and a couple of bangs in the front. It made me look all rebellious and dangerous. Dangerous is not shown a lot, but rebellious is still shown a lot from me. Dad called just as I was about to call him and he was angry that I wasn't home. Now after I got home, all the jagda from my previous post happened. Other than that, it was a fun day. Oh, and my project sucked! I was put in two projects, the first one was really good, the second one was the longest I've ever had! Ugh… anyway, I am off tomorrow! Yay!

Frustrated to no end

I sometimes think, why the hell do I have a blog? What is it that I blog about that is so useful? Well, this is one of those times I really appreciate having something to vent to, which is my computer right now. I am so sick of my parents telling me what to do, when to do it, who to do it with, and all that crap. Even though they do let me live my life independently, they control certain important aspects of it that I would actually give up those moments of independence for. If that makes any sense at all. I am right now talking about so many things, I can't even list them. I have to move out immediately. I don't care if they want me to or not, I just have to. I really should have done this long back, there may not have been so many problems. I stayed back because they were insecure about me leaving. Well, this is it. This is what happens. I am sick of them controlling my life. I really should take my life into my own hands. Not hand it off to my parents. The only person I could rely on was Josh, and now they wont let me see him either. I bring him up and they feel guilty, but not guilty enough to let me see him. What the hell? I mean I know parents are supposed to have a control on kids' love life, but I am 20 for godsakes! Almost 21, an adult! This really isn't up to them anymore. And I shouldn't let it be. I hope I can work it out soon. I am searching craigslist right now.

Usuallllllll Stufffffffffff

There's a chweet little doooggy sitting right next to me!!! Chocolate brown furry little cutie! Oh! I want a doggy! Anyway, I am sitting here in the library typing up this post really quick. I have to be at work in two hours, or maybe just one. I don't know. I do need extra hours. I wonder if they have extra hours for tomorrow. Tomorrow I could do. Anyway, I got a purple iPod Nano 4th Generation. It's pretty nice and really really tiny. Plus it's ridiculously thin. Wafer-thin really. I won't even notice if it slips out of my hand. The picture above is what my nano looks like. Anyway, I should work on my document before I head to work. Also, I spoke to Archan today. She's doing well. I called her up at around 12 in the midnight for her, and she said she didn't mind because it was the holidays and she wasn't going to sleep till around 1 or 2 anyway. So I am planning the trip with her and I think it's going to work out well. I plan to leave sometime around mid-June, and I plan to return sometime between the middle or end of July. Depends on how long Patti wants me to stay. Archan is planning to come to Madras and stay with me for a week, just like last time, and I am going back to Pune with her and spending another week. 2 weeks is plenty of time, na? Yay! And on my way back, I'm getting off in Bangalore and spending a week with Ganesh Mama like I promised. Then I'll come back to Madras, start all the visits and get all the jobs done for Mom and Dad, if there are any, and then relax at Patti's place. I'll be staying 1-3 weeks with her depending on how long she wants me to stay. Last time, after I got all the jobs done and such, I could only spend a week with her and she was really disappointed that I wasn't there longer. So this time she wants me to make the trip for atleast a month and a half, which is what I plan to do. Since it's summer, I'll have plenty of time left over to spend in Sacramento also. Anyway, just updating my music on my other iPod. Oh, my God, I have listened to Yuvvraaj atleast 10 times today. I love A.R. Rahman!

Apple's driving me crazy!

I pity the people (namely me) who rely on Apple's products. The damn company keeps releasing newer versions every flipping year! I mean seriously, I bought my first iPod in 2006, a white 30 GB fifth-generation iPod. Then Apple released it's freakin' iPod Classic the next year, which was even better with it's new features (mainly coverflow, which is what attracted me). Ok, I got a black 80 GB iPod classic. Then they released the iPod Touch! Fine! I had to get my hands on that one, it was so useful with it's touch features. Now they've released a newer nano (which I got today) and a second generation iPod Touch (with Genius and a built-in microphone). Ugh... Apple is really driving me nuts. I'm hoping to sell my iPod Touch on Craigslist and get the newer model. If by that time, Apple hasn't released a newer model, I'd be really surprised. Anyway, my new iPod nano is a silver one! But it's a bit bland, so I think I'm going to trade it in for another color. Perhaps, Indigo, Blue, or Orange. Orange looks really unique! Ooooh, I love the blood red color too!

Just Blahbing again...

I'm back! And I had an awesome day at work too... :) 10! Imagine that! In five hours, I did ten on the project. Then one of the girls asked me if I wanted to switch over to the next project because our project was done, or if I wanted to go home. Trust me, I was tired, so home sounded really good. Therefore I didn't even let her complete the sentence, I replied I wanted to go home. So got out 3 hours early! Yeah, I can make it up on Tuesday or Wednesday or even Thursday. Anyway I am still listening to Yuvvraaj. I can't stop listening to it! Especially Dil Ka Rishta. Long live A.R.R. 

Tu Hi Mere Dost Hain

Aaja main hawaaon mein bitaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

Aaja main khalaaon mein utaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

Aawaaz ka darya hoon, behta hoon mein neeli raaton mein

Main jaagta rehta hoon, neend bhari jeel si aankhon mein

Aawaaz hoon main!

Aaja main hawaaon mein bitaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

Aaja main khalaaon mein utaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

Raat mein chandi kabhi aise gungunati hai

Sun zara lagta hai tumse aawaaz milaati hai

Main khayaalon ki mehek hoon, gungunati saaz par

Ho sake to milaa le, aawaaz ko le saaz par

Aaja main hawaaon mein bitaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

Aaja main khalaaon mein utaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

Oh, kabhi dekha hai saahil, jahaan shaam utarti hai

Kehte hain samandar se, ek pari guzarti hai

Who raat ki raani hai, sargam par chalti hai

Aaja main hawaaon mein bitaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

Aaja main khalaaon mein utaake le chalo

Tu hi to meri dost hai

English translation for the hindi lyrics:

Come, let me take you over the winds

Only you are my friend

Come, let me take you across the heavens

Only you are my friend

I am a sea of voices, flowing on cloudless blue nights

I keep awake in the dazed, slumberous eyes

I am the voice!

Come, let me take you over the winds

Only you are my friend

Come, let me take you across the heavens

Only you are my friend

The moonlight often hums in the night

Listen, it seems her voice blends in yours

I am the fragrance of imagination, on the effervescent rhythm

Synchronize, if you can, blend the voice in it

Come, let me take you over the winds

Only you are my friend

Come, let me take you across the heavens

Only you are my friend

Have you seen the shore, where the evening sets?

It is said a fairy crosses the ocean

She is the queen of the night, who descends to the rhythm

Dil Ka Rishta

Ek jaan hai hum

(Alaap)

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Dil dil hai dil dil mil jaane de

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Dil ka yeh sikha chal jaane de

Rishta, yeh rishta, pakk jaane de

Door dil se nahin hai hum door

Jism alag hi sahin

Ik hi ja ek noor

Lamba safar umru ka hai

Tanha guzarta nahin

Sar pe agar dhoop na ho

Saaya udharta nahin

Rishte bina hai jis tara

Saaye mil aadmi

Dil ki kisi dori se hai

Bandha hua aadmi

 

Oh, run away, never leave your soul behind you

Oh, slow it down, be sure to carry it too

                                  

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Dil dil hai dil dil mil jaane de

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Dil ka sikha chal jaane de

Rishta yeh rishta pakk jaane de

 

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Dil ka yeh sikha chal jaane de

Rishta yeh rishta pakk jaane de

 

Haste hue jeena hai to

Jeene kisi ke liye

Tere liye hai zindagi

Tu zindagi ke liye

Door palke utake to zara

Rishton ki roshni to ho

Dil ko jalaa to zara

 

So when you ask

I be your dear brother

Someone who’s always there

To be by your side

Don’t let it pass

The feeling does matter

If we never ever look back

Here’s what you mean to me

I want to smile, shout out

Scream out

I find my stregnth right here with you

You’re my stregnth

 

Door dil se nahin hai hum door

Jism alag hi sahin

Ik hi ja ek noor

Door dil se nahin hai hum door

Jism alag hi sahin

Ik hi ja ek noor

 

Translation for the hindi parts

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Hearts are hearts, let them mingle.

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Let the currency of the heart prevail, let this relationship be solidified.

We are not distanced from the heart, our bodies might be independent, but we share one life, one soul.

The lengthy journey of life is not traveled in solitude, as without sunlight, no shadow is cast.

Without relationships, one is like man without a shadow.

It’s as if one is tied using some string of the heart.

Oh, run away, never leave your soul behind you.

Slow it down, be sure to carry it too.

 

Passion and agression, can I leave it somewhere?

Let the currency of the heart prevail, let this relationship be solified.

 

If you want to spend life pleasantly, live for someone.

Life is for you, and you for it.

Look up a little for a flame of relationships.

Brighten your heart a little.

 

So when you ask

I be your dear brother

Someone who’s always there

To be by your side

Don’t let it pass

It really does matter

If we ever never look back

Here’s what you mean to me

I want to smile, shout out

Scream out

I find my strength right here with you

You’re my strength

 We are not distanced from the heart, our bodies might be independent, but we share one life, one soul.

Yuvvraaj

A.R.R. is amazing. I have to say that he is the most amazing music director ever. In two days, he's managed to capture my attention towards two movies in two languages. One was Sakkarakatti, and for that I have already written my review. Now this movie is called Yuvvraaj. It's amazing how entrancing orchestration can be. I also have to say that orchestration is Rahman's strongest talent. He manages to come up with captivating and picturising orchestration for a movie like this. The last amazing orchestration of his that I've heard is from Taal. The 10th song Ishq bina, sometimes known as the Remix has amazing orchestration. 

Now let's get to Yuvvraaj.

All the songs are excellent!

The songs are composed with excellent vocals and nuanced orchestration. Dil Ka Rishta is in my opinion, the best song in the movie. It's mixed with new age fusion and orchestration. Manmohini Morey shows you just how creative the composer, A.R. Rahman, is. What a classical song! The songs from Yuvvraaj are perhaps best seen, not just heard.

Dil Ka Rishta 

Dil Ka Rishta starts with a slow entrancing piano melody which continues into a sad and ghostly melody. Then the violins come in together to form the key orchestration in the song and it quiets down to the first words of the song, Ek Jaan Hai Hum, and the orchestration starts again with Carnatic notations together and quiets down again for an alaap bit. Then the orchestration builds with a choir and comes in with various violins and saxophones and such building a captivating end and suddenly starts the beat. The beat is so predictable, yet completely unpredictable. It leaves you appreciating Rahman's talent to come up with something you expect and completely amaze you with it.

Sonu Nigam is the first singer in the song and he does a really good job bringing out the melody of the song, Tu. Dil ka rishta means "Relationships of the heart". In the middle there are a couple other orchestrations that are almost up to par with the main orchestration of the song. In the middle, Rahman comes in with some Carnatic Notations and he does them so well. I realized this first from the movie Rang De Basanti where he sings with Lata Mangeshkar on a song, which I've forgotten for the moment, but I shall edit this post as soon as I remember. 

Tu Meri Dost Hain

The melody in the beginning is quite repetitive throughout the movie, but it's a nice tune, so I'm not going to complain about it. The beat of this song and the beginning of the song come in quite well together. The violins and the chorus. Benny Dayal sings this song and he has done a really good job. He also sang a song in Rahman's other recently released Sakkarakatti, and that song also became one of my favorites. He has a really nice voice. The part where the lyrics are as follows, Aawaaz hoon main (I'm a voice), is one of my most favorite parts of the song. In the middle there is more orchestration which is really nice to hear and you can picturize in your mind that something dramatic is happening. Now for my favorite female singer, Shreya Ghoshal. She comes in after the orchestration. She does a great job, as usual, in keeping her voice above the music and in the minds of the people listening to them. 

Manmohini Morey

One of my most favorite songs in the movie, Manmohini Morey is sung by Vijay Prakash. It's beat is very much of the modern age, yet you can immediately make out that it's a classical song. I love the musical composition of this song, and my favorite parts are where the Alaap and Carnatic notations come in. He just keeps me rooted and as I listen to the song, I can imagine the notes going up and down in my head. The key melody of the movie comes in in the middle and only after that is the phrase, Manmohini Morey, the title of the song, is sung. Manmohini Morey Mann Bhaave. What a beautiful phrase. The song ends with my favorite bit, the Alaap. 

A.R.R. has produced quite a feat with his second movie alongside Subhash Ghai. His first movie was Taal which was also an immediate hit. Even my parents love that movie! It's one of our favorites when we go on long car rides (and pretty much the only movie music we have in common). 

All the other songs, Tu Muskura, Mastam, and the others are also excellent! Give it a listen!

Sometimes we can be such hypocrites

I just read up about the movie, Fire, and it made me so mad seeing what the results were. I honestly don't think the Indian audience could stoop any lower. First of all, the movie is about homosexuality, or rather lesbian relationships. I am not sure if you can call women homosexuals, I honestly haven't heard any women being called that. Anyway, this movie is about two married women who find solace in each other after being constantly ignored by their husbands. Eventually this solace turns into intimacy, and this is the first movie ever to really portray this side of relationships. All the other movies are really just about a guy and a girl falling in love. Even though I am completely straight, I am all for those who want to choose sexuality. After all, people have freedom of speech and all that other crap, so why not their sexuality? This is why I am strongly for the upcoming Proposition 8 I believe it is that, if voted yes, will stop gays from marrying. That is completely unfair. Straight people can get married, so why isn't marriage for gay people? Anyway, coming back to the movie, the population created all sorts of riots after the release of this movie. They smashed glass panes of the movie theatres and all that crap. Ok, that's a group. But the chief minister responded by saying that he congratulated them on their reactions and that this subject was "alien" to our culture. Right, like all the other things they portray in the movies nowadays is not "alien" to our culture. You want to be westernized? This is one of the things that happen in the western culture. You have to take the good and the bad, not just the good, man. Deal with it.

Sakarakatti Music

I have to say, I think I already heard the songs from this movie about a month ago, and they hardly phased me. What do you think was the reason for that? I'll tell you. I MUST HAVE BEEN HIGH ON DRUGS!!! Sakkarakatti music is awesome! A.R. Rahman, the music maestro and my idol created the music and it, as usual, stood up to it's standards. The best song I like in the movie is Chinamma Chilakkamma. It's sung by Benny Dayal and Chinmayi.  There is also a song like that in Hindi from the movie Meenaxi, which is sung by Sukhwinder Singh, but I like this one much better. Benny Dayal sounds better, but in the end of the song, you can easily make out that the last two "Shararararara" parts are sung by Sukhwinder Singh. They do sound quite nice, by the way. The music video in Hindi is what we tamilians call "Kandravi". Some women dancing around in a brothel. I wanted to check out the video but realize my shock when I saw who it was in the video?! Kunal Kapoor!!! I love that guy, but I can't believe he would be in a video like this... Well, he does play the good guy in the movie, so that turns out alright. So cute, that guy is. Anyway, the tamil music video is so cute. Especially the dance steps and the special effects (Apparently some mummies invade the town and they fight or whatever, I don't know why that came up). Other than that, Taxi Taxi is a dancy number and I could just imagine myself getting up right now and dancing to it.  I like the rap beats and stuff like that (No inappropriate languages or meanings, by the way). My second favorite song though is Naan Eppodhu. It's such a melodious number and in the middle, the music is almost like you're in an imaginary land. So cool is the music. A.R.R. is the best!

TZP is awesome!!!! Awesome, I tell you!!!

I know that I already wrote a review on Taare Zameen Par, but I have to say, what an amazing movie. These are the kind of movies that children ought to see. The movies that actually make sense, that actually mean something, that actually happens in the real world. All this love crap, arranged marriage crap, who really cares about all that? Children are the gems of the world. They need to be given enough care in this world, especially children in india who are mentally retarded, but have no one to actually care about them. In U.S., it’s different. You have people who care about these children, but in India, no one would believe those children. They would just think those children are stupid. Mentally retarded does not equal stupid. Mentally retarded equals more care, more supervision, and working harder. Those children do actually come up to be quite good people later on in life. They just need to be given enough to take on the world. That’s what Taare Zameen Par is all about. I have to say, props to Aamir Khan for coming up with this script, original or not, I don’t know. But really, the acting is superb. The story is superb, I just watched this movie for a second time, and even now, I’m still crying. What a story. This movie is currently being dubbed into tamil called Vaal Natchathiram. The music is exactly the same, produced by Shankar Ehsaan Loy, but just in a different language. Actually in two different languages. It’s also being dubbed into Telugu. I still say Hindi is the best. But I cannot wait to see how this movie does in the Tamil and Telugu community. It even did wonderfully in the U.S., people were amazed. I am sure this is one of the movies up for Filmfare awards this year. Wonderfully scripted, wonderfully produced, wonderfully directed. All in all, this is the best movie I have ever seen. Honestly.

Jannat Songs

I watched Jannat yesterday and honestly I have to say, I don't know how I could have missed the rest of the music. I mean I thought Zara Se was the best song in the movie, I was wrong. Haan tu hai is much better than Zara Se, I have to say. Props to K.K. for that. Judai and Lambi Judai is also good, though they are the same songs, Judai is sung by Kamran Ahmed, and Lambi Judai is sung by Richa Sharma. I don't know which one is better, honestly. They both sing it so well, and frankly I don't think I could sing it that well. Even though I will do my best since that's my selected song for the performance this Sunday. I have been looking for the title song from Chellamadi Nee Enakku since I watched that TV serial in India, and I finally found the whole song! Though I wish I could find it in better quality, I think there's no way of doing that unless I go directly to Sun TV. Unfortunately I'm in a different country from them. I love this song so much. What a classical song! The bharatanatyam dance is also very good in this song even though they don't feature the complete song. Anyway, it's 3:50 now and my shift starts at 4:30 today. I wish they would put me in CATI for once. I really want to learn that. They didn't have the time to teach me yesterday, so they switched me to the real project instead of CATI. Damn. I'd much rather prefer CATI. It goes much faster than the real projects. I don't even have to get up. Adhisayama, anubhavama

Anubhavita avasarama

Paravasama navarasama

Arimugama

What nice phrases. That's the reason I like this song so much. Next up is Rhythm. I have to wait for the lyrics to see which language this song is. It's Paigham laaya saawan, hindi. In tamil it's called Kaatre en vaasal vandhay, and in Telugu it's called, Gaalena Vaakitikoche. All the languages are good for this song, but my best language is hindi. Shaan has sung it so well. Although in the female voice I like Harini better. Kavita Krishnamurthy also does a pretty good job, but the voice that just sort of goes with the surroundings is Harini's. She's an amazing singer. My favorite female singer though is Shreya Ghoshal, and my favorite male singer is… well, I don't have to tell you guys, I ramble about him enough, but if you can't guess, it's K.K.! I love KK. So amazing. Saagar kinare kisi parbath ke saaye mein, dikhta hai ik aashiyaan. Main kilsa gaya main toota jagsaara. Nice. Anyway, I'm really tired and yesterday night was not good. I had to deal with a problem after I came home and I really wasn't expecting to deal with that problem till I left Sacramento and reached N.Y. Looks like I have to make another trip soon. I just hope god has in mind that there's only so much I can take. After that, I'm done. I wouldn't know what to do and that will really become a problem. Enough ramblings though. I haven't seen the latest episode of Gossip Girl. It came on yesterday and today's Tuesday. Today is Without a Trace, I believe. And tomorrow is Bones. I love Bones, such an interesting show. Paighaam laaya saawan, dhaaman se, jaage aankhon main meri jaaga sapna.

Bzzzzy

So then, what to say ,what to say… *tap tap tap tap*. Hehe, just kidding. I’m listening to Zara Se right now. I love K.K., he is such an amazing singer. I don’t know why, I instantly fall in love with all the songs he’s ever sung. But I was stuck with Zara Se for so long. I agree with Aditi. Listening to a song after a long time that you know you love is one of the things that makes life worth living. My day was hectic as usual. I don’t know why, but I felt so tired when I woke up today. I just didn’t want to get out of bed. Unfortunately I had to work, so that had to happen eventually. I just can’t get that tune out of my head. Lets see. This is how it goes.
S G P M R G R N S G P M G R S N D G P M M N P
Yeah, that’s an awesome tune. I don’t know why it’s so entrancing. Anyway, yeah. My day was pretty much that. But after work, I hung out with Frances for a couple of hours. That was fun. I had my dinner and we watched Desperate Housewives together. Yes, you know how we are when it comes to Desperate Housewives and Grey’s Anatomy. Speaking of which, next week’s GA episode seems so awesome! I can’t wait for it. I don’t know why you have to deal with that one week period. What the hell? Why can’t they just play everything on the same day? I would so watch it. Anyway, I am so tired I can barely sit up. I actually nodded off for a couple of minutes if you can believe it. Frances said the reason I’m so tired is probably because I’ve been so busy with things lately that I haven’t had enough sleep. She’s probably right. Actually she’s always right when it comes to me. I don’t know why. But I think I’ll change that tonight. I’m going to get atleast 12 hours solid sleep because tomorrow I don’t have to be at work until 4:30. Oh, that’s right. I have to call Patti, she must be worried. I haven’t spoken to her since Mom and Dad came back, which was a couple of weeks ago, so I should probably talk to her tomorrow. Yay! Only on week more! I will write more when I have something to say. I actually do need to publish one more thing.

Haan tu hai

Jo khwabon kayalon main
Socha nahi ta
Tu ne mujhe itna pyar diya
Main jab bhi jahan bhi
Kadi dhoop main ta
Teri zulf ne mujpe saaya kiya
Haan tu hai meri baathon main tu
Meri khwabon main tu yaadon main tu
Iradon main tu hai
Koi bhi aisa lamha nahi hai
Jisme mere tu hota nahi hai
Me so bhi jaun raaton main lekin
Tu hai ke mujmain sota nahin hai
Tu hai ke mujmain sota nahin
Haan tu hai meri baathon main tu
Meri khwabon main tu yaadon main tu
Iradon main tu hai
Hai teri inaayat tujse mili hai
Hoton pe mere haseen jo kili hai
Usse mera chehra chupa bhi na paaye
Tujhe paake haasil hui jo khushi hai
Tujhe paake haasil hui jo khushi
Haan to hai meri baathon main tu hai
Meri khwabon main tu yaadon main tu
Iradon main tu hai
Jo khwabon kayalon main
Socha nahi ta
Tu ne mujhe itna pyar diya
Main jab bhi jahan bhi
Kadi dhoop main ta
Teri zulf ne mujpe saaya kiya
Haan tu hai meri baathon main tu hai
Meri khwabon main tu yaadon main tu
Iradon main tu hai

Sometimes feelings are the worst

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to say anymore. I wish life were a lot easier than this. I am sitting in silence right now. I can hear a few things. A plane flying outside, the fan running, a few footsteps, a little bit of music, and my heart.

 

A heart beats infinitely

Until the time it breaks

Until then it beats steadily

Or unsteadily when it comes to love

Why is it so unsteady when it comes to love?

Is it the fact that we're not sure?

Or is it the fact that we're not clear?

Aren't they both the same things?

Why are there so many questions?

A relationship, a partnership, a friendship

A love, heartbreak, a companionship

All these things require love

And yet it hurts as if you touch a burning stove

Sure, after you figure it out

It's bliss

But to get there, you have to do so many things

It's endless

Problems on top of problems

Complications on top of complications

Which problems trump

Which are they so complicated, the situations?

I don't know if it makes any sense

But life itself is so dense

Right now, it's a friendship

A while back, it was a relationship

Soon it will be a companionship

All the relations we go through, we seek

My heart feels so weak

It cannot go through so many relations

But it's a heart, this is how it functions

I wish sometimes that my heart was a switch

A switch is so simple to figure out

There's no doubt

I don't know how this is going to end

But I hope for my sake, there's a godsend

 

I don't know why I feel like this, and frankly I don't care. I just want it to stop. Therefore, there is nothing else I can do. There is someone who is really annoying me and confusing me at the same time. This could be related. I don't like to be confused. Being confused annoys me. Life is so damn complicated. The simple life I led before all this started is what I want once again. My life in hostel was so simple and exciting. So was my high school life. I want to continue with my high school friends, and I want to continue with the friends I have now… at least most of them. There is one person I want to let go, but I'm not sure if I should. I do like this person a lot, she's a good friend, and I can help her, but she won't let me. In being so against it, she's driving me crazy. She's completely torturing me and I can't continue any longer. I have to put a stop to it. This person made me create this personality, and now she herself doesn't like it. Where does that put me? How can I change my personality when she won't tell me how I should change? All she can do is feel guilty about changing me. Everyone who knows me knows that I have multiple personalities. I am not the same person. With my friends, I am one person. With my parents, I'm one person. With my sister, I'm one person, and with the rest of my family, I'm one person. The problem is that I'm also a different person with her, and this is the most difficult personality I have created so far. I can either change it, or completely erase it. And since she won't let me change it, my only other option is to completely erase that personality. And to do that, I have to let go of the person I've created that personality for. That's what I'm going to do. I'm going to let her go. I'm still her friend, I'll be there. But I won't be completely there any longer. Sometimes I can just hope for things to sort themselves out. I feel like an idiot for having made such a big deal out of this, and so does she. The friendship I have with her is the most complicated friendship I've ever had in my life. Trust me, I've had some pretty weird friendships in my life, and some pretty strong ones too. This one I can't make sense of. This friendship drives me crazy every freaking time I think of it. That reminds me, I've got to call Joey. I forgot to return his call. I will call him tomorrow. I was thinking of going to a movie with him this weekend. Today and tomorrow he's in Jackson, but he'll be back on Sunday and we were planning to do something on Sunday before we have to go to work. We both have the 2 o' clock shift on Sunday. He definitely has more experience at EMH than I do, but he's teaching me some things. I also talked to Archan yesterday and I freaked her out a little bit. I was so overwhelmed that the instant she heard my voice, she knew something was wrong. She kept asking me to tell her what was bothering me, but I told her I'll call her back and explain later. I sent her an email that it was nothing and explained the whole situation to her. She said that she could help me, but it depended on what I wanted, which I still can't figure out. She told me to think about it carefully and not make any rash decisions. I think she's right about that. She's been the most trusted person in my life and will always be. Next to Hitesh of course. Other than that, I don't have anyone I rely on a lot. Even though I've known Josh for four years, I've known Arch my whole life and I've known Hitesh for about ten years now. He's been with me most of my life, and Arch has been with me my entire life, literally. I still laugh at our pictures as toddlers. The picture that we took when we wore our Gagra Choli for a festival. Her's was lavender and mine was orange. Or was it the other way around? And the time Karthik was carrying both of us. I was crying like a baby at that time. Well, I can't really be blamed for that… I was a baby, after all. I should go now, I just updated this post that I had written in the afternoon. I've some things to do in the morning and then I have to go to work. It's about to be three in the morning, so I better go. Ciao!

 

Kis taraf hai aasmaan

Kis taraf zameen khabar nahi

Jabse aaye hai sanam

Mujko khud ki bhi khabar nahi

Mere maula maula mere maula

Mann madhwala kyun hua re

Mere maula maula mere maula

Mere maula

I have no idea why computers are so cranky. I mean the men call us cranky? What about computers??? Those things can never be relied on. Especially my computer. My Compaq runs on Windows Vista… oh, what’s Windows Vista, you ask? It’s the coolest, most brilliant, operating system on earth… *HAHAHAHAHA* ahem, no. It’s the suckiest operating system in this universe according to me. The graphics are cool and everything, but the operating system is so damn slow if you have a system that was previously running XP. Thankfully, my system was made for Vista, so it comes with 2 GB RAM which is pretty fast. Unfortunately though, the wireless sucks no matter how fast your computer is. Damn vista doesn’t connect to any signal that’s low. It has to be medium or high which sucks because most wireless networks have a signal that’s low. Was this a problem with XP? Never. My XP system was connected to a network and stayed connected until I shut it down. Vista though? It suddenly connects and then disconnects you once in fifteen minutes depending on how much it likes you. That’s it. I am changing to XP immediately if this SP2 pack is delayed any further. It better not be. It’s so windy outside. I have to call Joey and let him know the movie timings for Sunday. We’re planning to go watch Igor at Century Downtown Plaza. My project starts today at 4 and it is 3:20 right now. Also I think I might be getting a 16 GB 4G iPod nano. I sold my classic because I hardly used it and it had so much space remaining. I thought I will go in for the 16 GB because I cannot make do with the 8GB. My music is already 8.28 GB. Other than that, I don’t have many TV shows on iTunes. I watch all my TV shows online. Speaking of which, yesterday’s Grey’s Anatomy and Family Guy were awesome! Grey’s Anatomy wasn’t as dramatic as they had shown in the previews though. Family guy on the other hand… this has got to be the funniest episode I’ve ever seen. Stewie cracks me up everytime!

Peter: It was my understanding that everyone had heard.
Brian: Heard what?
Stewie: Brian, don’t!
Peter: *Starts dancing* A-wella Bird bird bird, the bird’s the word, a b-b-b-bird bird bird, the birds the word! *After a few minutes, falls down*
Brian: Peter, are you ok?
Peter: a pa pa pa ooh ma ma mow pa pa mow ooh ma ma pa pa ma mow.
*Brian gets up and walks out*
*Stewie is staring straight ahead, then takes a gun out of his pocket and points it into his mouth*

Peter: Well, Jesus is gone. But he did give me something before he left.
Lois: Really? What is it?
Peter: It’s something of significant importance.
Meg: Dad, come on. What’s the word?
Stewie: Craaaaap!!!
Peter: *gets up and starts dancing*A -wella Bird bird bird, the bird’s the word, a b-b-b-bird bird bird, the birds the word!

*Hahahahhaa* You’ve got to watch the episode to know what I’m talking about. Best episode ever other than Stewie’s Hintity hint hint episode

Mom and Dad are back!!!

Listening to the song, Haiyo Pathikicchu. Very cool song, slow dancing number. Anyway, Mom and Dad are back (finally)!!! I was so happy to see them. And the best part was the pictures, especially Archan. She looks choo chweet!!! I miss her soo much. Can't wait to see her next summer. She sent me a picture of herself with the Teddy Bear I sent her. We named her Jinxy. Don't ask... She also got a couple of tops for me, and they are really cute. She knows what colors I like, so she got one in my favorite color, black. Anyway, we have already planned out our trip for next summer. I will go to Madras, she will also come to Madras. Our plan is to spend as much time with each other as possible, without disappointing Patti. Patti was disappointed last time because I didn't spend much time with Patti, thatha. They're the main reason I am going to India next summer. They are getting old and they want to see me, so I might as well see them. It's been two and a half years, or it will be next summer. Listening to Kadile Nadiche from Rythm. Awesome song.
కదిలే నడిచే కన్య నదిలా నీ వో మానినివే
అరె నీ వో మానినివే
ఒక్కట రెండా కథలే ఎన్నెన్నో నీకే చెబుతాలే
నీ గాదే చెబుతాలే
దీం తనన దీం తనన దీం తనన ధిరన
నడిచే నది ఆర్
ఎగసే అల ఆర్
నీలో కలలేనేనో
జయూవన రమణి మనువున గ్రిహుని
మాత ఉద్యనలువో
చిరు నడకలే నడిచిన గలగలె
తలాతల నురకలే నురకాల
సకి ముకమే
ఒక చోరుం ఒడి చేరం అల ఆరం చెలి పాదం
జిల్ జిల్ జిల్ అంధ శ్రుతులకే
గంగం వరం యమునై వరం కృష్ణం వరం
పొంగే నట
I don't remember the rest of the lyrics, but I will post them on my other blog as soon as I write them down. It's such a poetic song, so meaningful. Anyway, had some pizza, now I'm hungry again. Maybe I'll have some more. But it's 2:30 in the morning, I better go to sleep.

Who am I? Who Do I See?

Sometimes the sun is not as bright
As it seems during daylight
The creatures come out in the night
But the sun is still there hiding in fright
Poems don’t always need to rhyme
Talent doesn’t always need to shine
Lovers don’t always need to separate
Hearts don’t always need to break
Sometimes the world stops spinning
For a moment when we don’t realize
Our lives are filled with jobs, day to day routines
And our imaginations are left behind
But they’re often subconsciously aware
Of that exact moment when something rare
Occurs and they signal our mind
That something outside our robotic life is happening
Yet we ignore our imaginations and never unwind
Because we know that when we do
Our lives will break out of their routines too
Yet my heart always desires for something
Outside this world, there’s a dream
A feeling, a rare talent, a power
A whim, a passion, a fire
Or so it seems
My life is a mess, but my imagination is perfect
Things that are wrong in life, in my imagination they’re correct
There are no stops in my imagination, no barriers
No such things are education or careers
I am what I am, what I want to be
The trick is to figure it out
Who am I? when I look inside, who do I see?

Yep, I’m Sick

Apparently God doesn't like me at all. From the moment I was born, it's always been one thing or another. My mom dies, then my grandmother dies, and in the midst of all that, small little hostel problems. Then it's family problems with a family I hardly knew then. Lately it's always been one thing or another. Thankfully, nothing has led to anything dead serious. But I started messing up, my school, my job, my family, everything. I lost my job, I did get another one, but it's completely different and I don't know how long I'm going to last there. I have made a pretty good impression on them though the last couple of days, the only two days I have worked there. Anyway, today I'm sick. Like I don't have enough things to do, I have to miss work, and I have to miss school. Damn, I really don't want to. And also, I might not have to work this weekend, I'm still trying to weigh if that's a good thing, or a bad thing. If I'm still sick, then it's probably a good thing because I don't have to call it off, it's already off. But if not, then I'm losing hours. Anyway, mom and dad will be here tomorrow. I still have some cleaning to do. I don't know why, but I can't seem to get up at all these past couple of days. I've been so damn lazy! It's 2 in the afternoon and I just woke up an hour ago. I don't know what's going on. Anyway, I do have some errands to run, then I'll start cleaning the place up. It should only take about fifteen minutes, not much cleaning to do. I just have to pick up some clothes, do some laundry, vacuum the house, and such. Anyway, I think I have to leave in a half hour, so I better get ready. Oy, vey… Ciao!

It's Going to Rain!!!

Yay! It's going to rain this Friday! I am so running outside at the first sight of any drizzle. I am currently listening to Dil Samundar... rocking song, yaar. I feel like getting up at dancing to the whole song, only I am currently blogging. But don't think I'm not singing ;). By the way, I think I'm getting sick... but that's not going to stop me from getting wet on Friday!!! (Great... just what I need... more excuses to miss days and do the *running in a circle, going mad!* situation once again. Anyway, I think I'm going to sleep. I have to get up early and clean. I have to work at 2. Oh, and my parents' flight was cancelled, therefore they will be arriving a day late. My grandparents were extremely thrilled... and so was I... =D. No, not so much. I miss them. I can't wait to see them again. Yay! They're back in two days!

Blahbity Blah Blah Pt. 2

Ugh, sometimes I wish I could just run off to a place where no other human beings exist. No cars, no technology... uh... hehe, maybe my iPod, but no other technology! Well, I do have a place like that, but I'm not revealing that here! :D Why do I feel so overwhelmed? I really shouldn't do my projects so well, I now have so many offers. Ok, I should mention that that's a wrong word. Not offers, ORDERS!!! It would atleast a little better if I had a choice on which to pick, but noooo. I have to do ALL of them. Sons of... lovable angels! Anyway, I am pretty much blaahging right now. Yes, it's not even worth mentioning the nice word, "blogging". It's supposed to rain on Saturday (a chihuahua-like yelp)! In other news, my first day was awesome! A little hectic, but in the end it all turned out fine. I got about 5 surveys, and 1 unofficial survey! Still, that puts me over the top =D. I miss courage... that little dog... anyway. I should probably work on my story and end this pointless blog before I actually figure out a point, in which case you're all doomed. And by you all, I pretty much mean myself. I think... I'm confused. Ciao!

Yippee, completed my first day of training!

So these are some of the pictures we took when we were in Lake Tahoe, and I'm sorry I didn't post it earlier. Too many things kept me busy the last one month. It's quite sad that I get less free time than a full-time mom with 7 kids. Um... no offense to any full-time Moms out there. Worked on my story a little today, and now I have to think of a way to end it. It's going on and on and on, and ideas keep popping up in my mind every second. Suddenly it will weigh a ton (if it doesn't weigh so already). I had an interest day today. It was my first day of training at EMH. Good god, who knew it could be so complicated! Tomorrow is the first day without someone to guide me. I hope I don't screw up. Thank goodness I have some people who are as confused as I am, or maybe even more.

Tired... Hecka bored too~!

My pick of today! I love this picture everytime I see it.

Interesting week I've had. Fired by one job, hired by another... I think. Tomorrow's orientation. I'm nervous! Listening to Ragasiyam now. What a beautiful song. I think I did write the lyrics on my other blog, so you can read it sometime when you get the time.

ரகசியம் ஒன்று சொன்னான் அடி காதல் வந்ததென்று

ஒரு நொடி என் இதயமே நின்று துடிததேன்று

எனக்குள்ளே பேசும் பயக்கம்

இது எப்படி வந்தது எனக்கும்

விழிகளுக்கேன் இந்த புழுக்கம்

அவன் குளிர் முகம் பார்க்க துடிக்கும்

That's only part of the song, but you can read the full song on my other blog. Anyway, I pretty much spent my day lazing away. I did work on a couple of papers, but definitely didn't write as I usually do. I will work on my story a little bit before I go to sleep. I haven't gotten the time to work on it since I've been pretty busy this week. One news after another. It's a miracle I haven't died of a heartattack... yet.

Family Guy - Blue Harvest (The Star Wars Episode)

(The intro to the beginning of the story as it appears)
Episode IV
A NEW HOPE
It is a time of civil war, and renegade paragraphs floating through space.
There's cool space battles, and the bad guy is the good guy's dad, but you don't find that out 'til the next episode.
And the hot chick is really the sister of the good guy, but they don't know it, and they kiss. Which is kind of messed up. I mean, what if they had done it instead of just kissed?
Angelina Jolie kissed her brother. Yeah, she did. You know it, I know it, and her dad knows it. That's why they hardly ever talk anymore. You can run away to Africa, but you can't run away from the truth.
Oh, by the way, here's a tip for you: when this is over, go out and rent the movie "Gia." She's way naked in it, and makes out with another chick and everything. It's awesome. I stumbled across it late at night on HBO after I had just got back from hockey, and I almost fainted. But I digest...
Princess Leia was coming back from buying space groceries when this happened...

Something Amusing.

ALL CHARACTERS AND EVENTS IN THIS SHOW--EVEN THOSE BASED ON REAL PEOPLE--ARE ENTIRELY FICTIONAL. ALL CELEBRITY VOICES ARE IMPERSONATED... POORLY. THE FOLLOWING PROGRAM CONTAINS COARSE LANGUAGE AND DUE TO ITS CONTENT IT SHOULD NOT BE VIEWED BY ANYONE.

New new things to do...

Oh, my goodness. Saw Jenna after a loooooooooooong time. Anyway, discovering new things by the minute. Well, I have once again temporarily gotten rid of my headache. I don't know when it will be back, and I don't want to know. I am currently listening to Trance from Chamku, and it really does put me in a trance. My goodness, the synthesizers, the drums, the disco beat, and the lyrics especially. Wow. 

Vazhkayil endrendrum kaadhal inimai tharume... That is so true.

As for the arabic lyrics, I don't understand but they sure sound cool. 

3 languages mixed in one. It was like the Pathcai song I wrote. Jeele Yaara (Live your life, my friend).

So I am going to help Jenna put up some wallpaper on the ceiling. After that, we're going to practice driving, then get some dinner. I can go to the meeting on Tuesday, thank God. I get off in 15 minutes and I can't wait to get an hour's nap. That will really help since I didn't sleep much last night. Other than that, nothing is going on. I did forget to write one paper, but it wasn't too late when I remembered. Like everyone knows, I always do well when I procrastinate. The stress and tension makes my mind go into overdrive. I want to practice driving a lot today. I should go now, I think I'll get something to drink and head home. Then after the nap, I can help Jenna. Plus I talked to Archan last night, and I really miss her. She got the Teddy and we named it Jinxy. I almost told her about the Tire accident, but then my Dad was standing right next to her, so that was the ultimate danger. I will tell her another time though. Mom and Dad left atthai's place today morning. I am sure they would have reached by now, so I should call them too.

Killing

What is it that attracts people about killing? What is so great about it that they constantly have to keep doing it? I know I blogged about this a couple of days ago, but I just can't get over the fact that these people want to keep killing over one piece of land. And how big is that land? 86,791 sq. miles. Is this really worth killing all those people? And how long has this been going on? For decades. Why is it that they want to acquire this land so badly? Why is it that they want to torment all the poor people by taking away their families? Why is it that they have no heart? Greed. Greed is essentially the most harmful sin. People say that pride is the most harmful sin. Atleast with pride, only one person is involved. With Greed, there are many, and that's where the most danger lies. I have to say that no one is stopping this. If it were for me, I would be doing something about it. But what can I do by myself? I don't know. I really don't know. Right now my parents are over there, and I am so worried. I really hope things turn out okay until they come back. And as for those people, I hope they die the worst death possible for taking all those other lives.

Blahbity Blah Blah

Well, only 10 days left till Mom and Dad get back. It's been fun, but I do miss them a little. Tomorrow is Saturday! I'm free! No school, no work, no nothing! Sleep, sleep, sleep! Anyway, I forgot to get lunch today since I had to interview someone in the morning for my Psych research. I looked up and the time was 11:45. Whee! Fun, isn't it? Anyway, I did get to work on time, but now I'm starving. The lady from Marin Management is here, and I can't leave till she leaves. So... Go! Shoo, lady! Ugh, she's the most talkative person I've known on earth! Pretty much annoys the hell out of me... Blah, blah, blah, blah. Sometimes I run to the restroom to be rescued. Yeah, pretty pathetic, but hey, it's better than murder, right? I saw the movie Rhythm yesterday after a long time. What a beautiful movie, and the songs are so good. The last time I watched that movie was about 7 years ago. I remember that Harini and I watched it together right after I had come back from Hostel for the December holidays. I was at Harini's place for about five days, and at Grandma's place for the rest of the holiday. Ah, those were good times. We never got along well, but for some reason, we had fun during those holidays. Especially afterwards, she really started getting on my nerves, and I was angry with her for something that had happened between us, but a couple of months ago, out of nowhere, she called and apologized. I thought that it had gone on long enough, so I accepted her apology and I also apologized. So now everything's okay between us. She was more disturbed than I was during that period. I mean she was in love with our cousin. Well, he's her cousin more than mine since we're not blood-related. Because they are relatives of my stepmom. But then again, it's very common in India for cousins to marry their cousins. Especially in arranged marriages. I'm glad i didn't get roped into that. Then again, it's not over yet, but I'm so running away if anything like that comes up. Oy, vey. Archana also called and said that she got the Teddy bear. Jinx. Haha, that cutie teddy. Archan is also going to madras next month, and Patti was pretty much complaining that even when she's there, she just goes off with her friends or is talking on the phone and doesn't spend that much time with Patti. I have to talk to her about that. I'm sure she doesn't mean to ignore them. When I was there with her, she just spent all her time with me. She came to Madras 2 days before I arrived and visited all her friends before I arrived, so we were both free to spend time with each other. That was fun. We went around everywhere. Shopping, bakery, and also visited her other Patti who likes me very much. We also visited our cousins, and we spent a day with Harini. Then for new years, all three of us were supposed to go to the beach, but then Harini cancelled in the last minute. She lied that she wanted to spend time with her friends, but the real reason was that Murali mama didn't let her go because all three of us were girls and of course you know how it is in Indian beaches, especially with the guys.  I was so pissed off because I didn't know the real reason yet and only came to know later on from my Mom. So Archana and I bought a cake and spent the new year's day with Patti, thatha. I showed Patti how to use the CD player that I had got her, along with the M.S. Subbulakshmi CDs. She really loved her carnatic songs and was thrilled when I gave it to her. This time when Dad went, he showed her our pictures. I had printed about 50 pictures and put them all in an album for her. She said she really liked one of those pictures and was going to frame it and keep it in the living room. The picture she had of me before was a really old one. I think I was about 7 years old? After that, I really didn't bother giving any pictures till she herself asked me for it. So both of them are also moving to the new house next month, but I think it's after Archana leaves. They did the Omam on the new house and everything went off smoothly. It looks amazing. Dad took some pictures and sent it to me. Awesome. Anyway, I think I've been blogging long enough. I'll get some rest. Ciao!

Not much of a post...

Oy, vey. My head is really killing me. I think I've had this headache for the past three days, and even though Excedrin got rid of it for a few hours, it keeps coming back! I really can't keep relying on Excedrin. I mean that tablet has it's side effects which pretty much really bite you in the behind once a month. If I have a headache during that time, I'm pretty much screwed. Anyway, in other news, I've started using my old phone again (=D I love you, LG!). I'm so glad because that phone has a better camera, a longer battery life, and pretty much a better everything! I also finally got to working on my story and almost finished two chapters! Yippee! Now it's about 300 pages in Word and that's pretty interesting *cough cough*. Boogidy boogidy boo!

300! No, not the movie.

My 300th post! Not that I'm a great blogger or anything, but it's a proud feeling nonetheless. So, just lazed around the house pretty much today except for a shopping trip and a tire trip. Oh, right, I forgot to blog about that disaster. No, the shopping was not a disaster. Let's see, I pretty much drove my dad's car without permission, while they were in India, and I disastrously punctured the tire. Well, I think the better term would be "killed it". Really. One reason is because it was during the dead of the night, second reason, I couldn't see the curb, and third reason, I really wasn't looking at that side. It was only after I got out of the car did I see the disaster. Anyway, today I bought a new tire and it's all good. I even drove it afterwards to Walmart and back and it went pretty smooth. I just have to fill up the gas tank before they get back so they don't know that I've been driving it. Anyway, that's all is going on. Josh is just practicing on the piano, and he plays really well, actually. Anyway, I think I should get going before I make some marvelous discoveries about my writing and completely start over again, thereby letting the past 10 minutes go to utter waste. Well... Ciao!

I hate them

A month and a half ago, it took place in Bangalore. Then a few weeks later, they bombed Ahmedabad. Then a couple of days ago, Delhi. Also, they bombed Jaipur in April. And they're saying that these are just warnings and they don't mean to kill people. How the hell is killing 100s of people just warnings? I mean are they supposed to rise from the dead again? I swear to God, this war has been going on for ages, even before I was born. Why do they keep trying to force us? I am worried about Chennai now. It's the only major Metro city left in India that hasn't been under attack, but I'm sure they will take care of that, those freakin morons. Ugh, I wish the world was a much better place. No wars, no evil, basically. I don't know if that will ever come true. Anyway, there is nothing else.

Fun Day... and Tiring...

Well, another Saturday well spent. Or rather, a Saturday and about a half hour of Sunday. Anyway, the day started pretty much when I called and spoke to Patti, Thatha, but Mom and Dad had already gone to sleep since they had been running around for the previous 24 hours with no sleep whatsoever. Then I talked to Lynell for about an hour, and then Josh showed up when I wasn't ready yet, with Joel and guess who? Tamarrier! Yes, that annoying little monkey! In any case, the next few minutes was spent trying to get Tamarrier out of the house with Joel screaming, and then occurred a ticklefest, followed by an overjoyed Ash splashing water from Joel's bottle on both Joel and Tamarrier. Anyway, after that, we put Lynell on speakerphone trying to plan out the disney trip. This only resulted in all of us screaming at each other with Lynell counting in Japanese. Yes, counting, and yes, Japanese. After that, we all hung out a bit and then went swimming. Another almost accident today. This time it wasn't my fault. Well, alright, it was partly my fault. I was standing near the 8 feet line when this little kid pushed me in. I frantically flapped my arms which I'm sure made me look like a confused human who thinks she's a duck. Josh once again came to my rescue (Thank god, I don't know what I would do without him). I didn't go in after that. We all came back, rinsed ourselves, and changed. Then Josh, T, and I went to Walgreens because T had to use the ATM since we were practically broke. There was no ATM over there, and I tried to buy Coke which is when I realized that I only had my wallet, but my ID and Credit Card were both in the pocket of my other jeans that I had wore the previous day. What joy that was. So we drove back to my house, and I got my card and ID, and then we drove to 711 where T withdrew from his account while I bought the coke and Monster for Josh. Then we went back to my house and ordered a pizza which we all paid for, but T contributed the most. Then we all had pizza and watched "28 Weeks Later". My god, it was gory. Ugh... blood everywhere. I called my parents during the last half hour of the movie, and I'm sure I missed a lot of enlightenment during then. Anyway, after that Josh and T faced off in some Naruto battle or Dragonball Z or whatever. After that, we went to the lake where we just stood there for about half hour and then T had to go home, so Josh dropped him off at his house where we all hung out till T's parents came. Apparently something was bothering T and we tried to talk to him. Josh succeeded at first, but then I gave T a lecture and it was totally wasted. Well, I hope not. Anyway, after that Josh and I went up to the lake where we just stood there watching the moon. The moon was beautiful. It was so bright, and I looked at the moon and I remembered Jaya Patti. I was talking about her to Josh. He was holding me and we were just looking at each other. Then... we kissed! A couple of times! Nothing serious, of course. He even commented that I was better than him, which I'm sure was nothing more than an encouragement. Anyway, after that, Joel also came up and we walked to the dock. At the dock, we all just talked. Well, Josh and I did mostly and Joel just listened. Then after about an hour, we started walking back (Reluctant, of course). We reached about ten minutes later, and Josh's mom was pissed off. She had apparently asked Joel to bring us back, but Joel had of course ignored it. Anyway, after that we all just sort of hung out in Josh's car, talking and resting. After that I drove back to my house and then Josh went to drop Joel off and go to his job. So there, interesting day (Hintity hint hint).

Making my own decisions

I don't know if what I am doing is right, especially since it's against my parents' wishes. I have always followed whatever my parents told me to, but recently everything I do seems to be against their wish. Why? Because the things they told me to follow before are simple things in life that are good for you. But now they're making every single decision in my life. Who I am with, who I am going to be with. I can follow things they say, but that's the last straw. I choose who I hang out with, and I choose whom I'm going to marry. I mean its not like I am a bad judge of character. And they know that too. All the friends I've chosen in life, all the people I've hung out with, they know. And they know that those people are good too. So why can't I choose whom to marry? Why should it be an Indian guy? Personally, I don't have any preference. As long as their personality is good, as long as the person is good, and they truly love me, and I truly love them, that's all that matters to me. It doesn't matter if they're Indian, American, African American, Mexican, whatever. I really don't care. All I care about is that person. And I can truly adapt to anything especially because I don't follow my religion that much. I follow my culture, but not my religion. I am a completely different person with people other than my parents and family. My friends especially see me for who I am really, and they appreciate me for it. My friends don't follow religion that closely either, they just go on with their life doing what's good, and staying away from the bad. They just live their life knowing what's right and wrong and always doing the right. I appreciate that, because I absolutely don't hang out with the wrong crowd. Its because of that that I haven't gotten into any predicaments in my life. I've always been with the right crowd. And I've advised people against hanging out with the wrong crowd. For example, I know that one of my friends hangs out with this guy who drinks a lot. I am glad that my friend doesn't drink, but you never know the situation. So I advised him against hanging out with that friend, or making him stop drinking. I think it's working. But like I said, I choose who to hang out with. I never pick the bad person, and I am an excellent judge of character. Therefore, I wont get into any situations that I don't want to.

Near Death

Oh, my goodness. I had the scare of my life yesterday. I completely forgot to post about it. Yesterday when we were swimming, I almost drowned! Everyone knows I don't know how to swim, so I was just pretty much in the shallow end of the pool. But as I was learning, somehow I waded into the deep end, which is 8 feet. Suddenly I realized it and started panicking. I kept trying to come up for air and whenever I did so, I screamed for help. Suddenly I thought it was over when Josh pulled me up and guided me to the shallow end. I got out immediately and I was like no way, I am not doing that again. Whoa.

It is going to be a long long day!

I am trying to stay awake right now with great difficulty. I was with Josh, Justina, and Joel yesterday, and they came over around 12. After they came over, we went swimming for a while, and took some rest, and then watched a scary movie, Dead Silence. It wasn't all that bad, except for a few gory scenes. Then I volunteered to go with Josh on the paper route after confirming that Joel and Justina could stay over. Joel and Justina also said that they will help with the route because they were supposed to be staying with me. This was a big mistake. Because we only got there like 12:30 and we got the papers done quickly by 1. Then we had to wait for 45 minutes for the front page to come in, and it finally came in around 2. Then we had to roll up the papers and such and by the time we got done, it was 3. By the time we left the Sac Bee station, it was 3:20. Then Josh met up with his uncle to drop off Darius and we got started on the paper route. By the time we were done, it was around 4:30. Then his uncle asked him to help for just 20 minutes. That 20 minutes passed when the clock struck 5:45. I Was pissed off at his family. And I had to be at work at 7. I was so pissed off the whole time. In between all that, there was an incident where some white guys tweaking started playing with us. Josh told his uncle and his uncle called up some of his "homies" and I don't know what happened after that because we left the scene. Now I haven't slept and I can't keep awake!